Judge Tamra explains brief decision to withdraw from RHOC (DELL)

Judge Tamra Ready to explain her decision to withdraw briefly Real housewife in Orange County.

“Go to shoot, Teddi Mellencamp Just been diagnosed [with brain cancer]57-year-old Tamra exclusively with US Weekly join Alexis Bellino‘ Bridal shower Saturday, August 16. “I don’t think people understand the other side of cancer. When your friend or family member or someone is diagnosed, you don’t know what to expect.

Tamra said it felt “destructive” to see her friend’s pain and discomfort. As a result, she “didn’t eat or sleep.”

“I will have to cope without crying during the day,” Tamra revealed. “I wasted. I was 108 pounds.”

In addition to filming season 19 Real housewife in Orange CountyTamra finds herself working hard on various projects, including her ihearttradio “Two of Two Ts” podcastrecord multiple episodes per week.

When the actors travelled to New Orleans together, Tamra said she reached her breakthrough point.

“This is such a painful period of my life, I just don’t want to relive it.” When asked if I’m looking August 14 When she walked out of the group dinner and announced the show. “I had a few drinks, I had Xanax, and it was the worst thing I could do. I just thought it wasn’t for me. I can’t do it anymore. I left. ”

and Season trailer The reality star said Tamra will return later this season, saying the filming break helped her focus on herself.

“Everyone is on the phone. Andy [Cohen] Calling me. [Executive producer] Alex [Baskin] Calling me. They asked me to take a week off,” they said, and they said, ‘We know how much pressure you are under, and I want you to take a week off. Go back to us in a week, and if you still want to quit, we respect your life and what is going on.’ They are very nice to me and very kind to me. ”

Tamra said some people may not be that friendly. She says she is a long-term friend Heather Dubrow Tamra is a compassionate person who questioned some of the reactions of other colleagues.

“I’m not asking for grace. I’m not asking others to feel sorry for me, but I’m human.” “I seem to be tough, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything. Seeing people like it Emily [Simpson] and Gina [Kirschenheiter] Say what they said about me without any sympathy? Honestly, Heather is the only one who truly has any sympathy. ”

As for why she wanted to reshoot after a break, Tamra said Teddi, 44, was a friend who encouraged her to go back and fulfill her promise.

“I’m a person who is 100% in everything I do, and when it comes to the show, I don’t have 100%,” she said. “You won’t know because every storyline is about me.”

Although Tamra continues to support Teddi and appreciates her “power”, she also appears for her close friend Alexis, 48.

Even though the two did not shoot season 19 together, Tamra said she had been in touch with friends and did not hesitate to attend her bridal shower Truly blessed jewelry in Newport Beach, California.

“I think it’s pure love,” Tamra said of Alexis’s relationship John Janssen. “I don’t think John’s rap is good. I don’t think people know that John is a single dad raising a child and hasn’t been married since his ex-wife, he met Alexis and he knew immediately he wanted to get married. When you know, you know.”

Real housewife in Orange County It airs on Bravo Thursday at 8 p.m. ET. Streaming episodes on Peacock anytime.